A look back

Realizations for the day:

Set goals- even puny ones. This world is a monstrosity if not handled in small doses, bites, nibbles or any other adjective you think of.

Cease and desist activity where black and blue bruises occur from internal injuries. Unless youre fighting. Thats just bad ass.

Upon speaking to someone of importanat issues, remember some are more easily influenced and affected by words. Sometimes they have spheghetti wills and you must keep this in mind. The forefront, to be exact. (this in relation to Realization #4)

When verbally shot in the face, remain calm. Yes, that did hurt, no, it was not fair and, nay, it was not in any way clever. 

Thoroughly consider the relation of your monetary funds to your trips. Yes, I could afford this one but no, I will not travel again for some time. Also dont count on people to fly with you -.-

Apologize.

Be sexy, seductive, playfull and energetic..but only with your One. Or in the process of wooing said One.

And most of all, know that even though the situation is 100% radicaly, explosively, embarrasingly, out of your hands, its not going to last for long. Such as roller coasters, ice skating, or any other physical form where things can and will go wrong. I.e screaming uncontrollably, painfully falling on your ass, so on and so forth.

This out of all I need to remember. Stupid Orlando..

p.s CONTROL ISSUES ON STEROIDS ARE NOT PLEASANT

Despite the shit youre putting my family through, despite your angry words, despite the underserved negligence, I will fucking own. Because thats what I do.

*buys black NYC trench coat* I will fucking own.

::EDIT:: oh my GOD he slept in my arms! It was the first time I've felt okay since everything. Baby dachson? You will be mine, and I will take care of you. Because thats what I do.