Beacuse I've discovered that I have lost the ability to feel when it comes to any situation involving a man.

I layed myself infront of new people and was myself. The reprecussions are enormous. I have lost my ability to feel empathy or compassion or trust.  I am insincere when it comes to a male. I cannot speak one word without feeling that I have expressed too much of myself. That I, while in a naive state of mind, exposed my being and am now in consequence completely shut off from the masculine world. 

View my heart as broken. Imagine a freed bird that was punished for her happiness. Imagine a caged animal that once knew what love was. Imagine this, and you will know me.

If this affects my relationship with him there will be hell to pay.